R.I.P DAUL KIM

We were very saddened today in the office to hear about the tragic death of Daul Kim. Apart from being stunned at the news there’s also a devastating sense that a bright, vivid and intriguing young girl has left us. I’m not even thinking about issues of her being a model or a chic young fashionista who might have grown up to be a great editor or stylist or actress. I’m thinking about the specialness of this girl as a human being… the inspiring quality of her mind… her ambition… her joy when she went to work. I’m saddened that her world as a human being became so despairing for her even as we assumed that life must have been magical and glamorous. I’ve only really had two extended conversations with Daul but I remember very vividly the life-force and passion in her eyes when she talked about clothes and travel and art and the irony of her being famous. Our deepest sympathy to her family and friends. And I truly wish that her spirit will find peace. (via Remembering Daul Kim - Of The Minute)

Oh my God, i am so sad. Her death gave me a quick shock. She's one of the most beautiful models, i might say. Rest in peace, Daul Kim. Be beautiful forever. xx

say hi to decided
i havent been back to korea for like... 6 months
i feel like everytime i dont want to face something
i just run away and my job allows me to do that
last winter was a ****ing hard time for me like every winter
like every summer is hot for me
on the way from shooting to home in the metro
i cried cos even when im 20, i feel the same
i used to come home in a metro crying when i was 16 in paris too.
whats the point of this manifestation
really what is it
since when did i ever have a normal life anyway
it was so ****ed up from the beginning its like as if this was the best way
it couldve been layed out anyway whats the point of being upset
people are the same anyway, just mild changes, mild different spectrums,
mild different backgrounds, people do this to each other anyway
it is not the difference between a complex intellect and a beautiful simpleton.
aknowledging it doesnt make the difference, like how people say setting awareness
makes differences. it does, but it doesnt, because action needs to follow.
so what is my action.
jump out the window?
cut ur wrist?
party ?
be decadant?
do charity work?
be a housewife?
obey?
disobey?
prove? not prove?
love ? not love?
enjoy the power?
what power?
im not interested.
pretend to be interested?
i am not entertained.
then entertain yourself
i am not entertaintment
beat yourself with work
only cry for help when you are about to die
when you are on the floor
until no one cares
until not even yourself cares."

SAD :-(

TEN

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN people right now.
1. You all are amazing, that's why i love you and care for you.

2. I'm a ninja.

NINE things about yourself.
1. I'm a moody person, but i wish i could change it.
2. I'm not smoking, not drinking and not clubbing. But don't mean i'm a good girl.
3. I'm laidback person, sometimes too laidback.
4. For me karma is exists. Either good or bad.
5. I put family firsts.
6. I get embarrassed if i cry in front of people
7. People say i laugh too easily, i think i have a bad sense of humor.
8. I am cheerful enough.
9. Giving advices and being a shoulder to cry on are my pleasure.

EIGHT things you look for in a boyfriend
1. Comfortable
2. Funny & Fun
3. Charming
4. Caring
5. Gorgeous eyes/smile
6. Good sense of style
7. Good sense of music
8. Clever / intelligent.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot.
1. I'm hungry
2. What the..............
3. I miss him.
4. OMG OMG OMG
5. Fuck.
6. What should i wear for tomorrow?
7. I'm bored.

SIX things you do before you fall asleep.
1. Wash my face.
2. Brush My teeth.
3. Brush my hair.
4. Read a book.
5. Late-night phone call with someone <3
6. Do something that makes me sleepy.

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment.
1. Family
2. Best friends
3. *You know who you are*
4. Jas.
5. Myself

FOUR things you really enjoy doing.
1. Chilling at home, being anti-social.
2. Havin fun with my best friends
3. Shopping
4. Having fun with my big family

THREE things you absolutely hate:
1. Selfishness
2. Me, being too careless
3. Manohara

TWO places you want to visit.
1. LONDON
2. LONDON

ONE thing you are afraid of.
1. Things that could hurt me. I know i am such a coward

FLAWLESS

Alexa Chung / Model, TV Presenter, Print Journalist, 'It' Girl

L0ND0N

Is there any way i could spend my life time in London? Seriously, i've been googling a lot about places to go to London and they're so beautiful. And the streets, the views, the people, the style, the double decker, the night-life, the british bands, the weather, the accent.. EVERYTHING!!

I DON'T WANNA GROW UP

I.Cant.Sleep.Help?
what i should do now is shut my computer off, take a shower and go to bed. but i just don't want to. I don't want the day to end. I want to slow it down. Time flies really fast and for some reason i can't except it. What's going on now? I am already in 11th grade? And in 2 years from now i'm going to graduate high school and go off to university?? THIS IS TOTALLY UNFAIR..

It seems like yesterday i was in junior high school, having fun with my friends. The memories of still playing in my mind clearly... As if it was just yesterday. hhh... Call me a coward to confess that i am not ready for the future yet.

Vogue Paris '09

I AM BACK WITH A GROUP OF FRENCHMEN

Vivienne Westwood/Spring 09

Sorry for the lack of posts. I've been really not in the mood for blogging. But thanks for the people who suggested me to not to stop posting, especially 'you', thanks for that.

I can't wait for next week. You know why? Because next week is Phoenix Concert at Bengkel! Soooo excited!!!!!! Gotta memorize all of Phoenix's lyrics so i can sing along at the concert with Phoenix. I really can't wait for 1st of August :D :D
You + Me + Phoenix = perfect combination.

I have holiday for a week! It's gonna be a refreshing week i think. But well, i don't know, these days life is getting rough. School is killing me and i still have a lot of assignments that i have to do, my family is getting more strict to me lately because of my last behavior that really made them lost their trust to me and my love life is.... going nowhere.

Hhhh

And by the way, I think i should buy new things for my wardrobe. My wardrobe i soooooo boring, lol.

GTG, BYE!